Heart Sick
I remember the time my young and immature heart was broken. I thought I was “in love” at the time, but looking back, I think I was “in lust”. My heart has really been broken many times since then. I have learned to guard and protect my heart a bit over the years. The Lord keeps working on me to surrender all of my heart to Him. He is really the One Who guards and protects my heart. When I’m surrendered to Him and His call upon my heart, my life has harmony and direction. Even in the midst of pain, suffering and struggle, my surrendered heart has peace and harmony. I know that this doesn’t make sense to say, but I have lived through a good bit of struggle, suffering and brokenness and He never left me. When I was angry, He probably should have left, but He didn’t. I love the realness and “straight talk” of some of the Psalms. David often bears his soul in a song. Check this out….
2 Have compassion on me, Lord, for I am weak.
Heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony.
3 I am sick at heart.
How long, O Lord, until you restore me?
4 Return, O Lord, and rescue me.
Save me because of your unfailing love.(Psalm 6:2-4 NLT)
David had a close connection with the Lord. He openly shared his heart and his struggles. I am encouraged by David’s journey, because I fail way too often as well. I follow the Lord and I seek His face, but I’m still battling pride and self-centeredness. I think way to highly of myself. When I take my eyes off the Lord and His call upon my heart, my selfishness takes over. I am indeed my own worst enemy. The Lord is there to shift my gaze back to Him, but I’m easily distracted with what I want and when I want it. This self-centeredness is a recipe for a broken heart. Every time I surrender to pride and seek my own way, my heart ends up hurt or broken. His way is ALWAYS best. He is leading and directing my life with the “big picture” of eternity in mind. When I’m being selfish, I’m only thinking of now.
I’m so thankful for His patience with me as I keep learning that my life is really all about God. I am created and built for His glory and not my own. When I surrender to His call upon my heart, others will notice Him in me. They may even be impressed, but I MUST remember that it is really Him they’re impressed with. If they really knew my heart like He does, they wouldn’t be so impressed. I’m thankful for His Grace, His Mercy and His Forgiveness. I’d be a constant mess without Him restoring my soul all day every day.
Pressing On!
Dwayne