The Moments that Matter
Blog by Kristen Hicks
I have had the hardest time figuring out what to write about lately. Not because nothing is happening, and not because I can’t see the Father moving in my life. It’s just that everything I could write about is just super personal. The Lord has definitely been doing a specific work on my heart. Preparing me, speaking to me, molding me, pruning me. It’s been a lot. But a good “lot.”
I can tell you, that I’ve had to work through a ton of fear— fear from past experiences or the repeat of them, fear of the unknown and the future, fear of just being alone in it all. Although it’s good things and I’m excited, I am still very uncertain about them.
I have felt the Lord very close, which, of course, is awesome. And I have experienced Him calming all these fears with His love. Giving me perspective that at the end of the day, it is about Him and His Kingdom invading mine. He has gently been reminding me that even if all of these fears of mine take place, He is still good, He still loves me, He is still holding my heart, and that I can still move forward, have faith and believe Him. All because of the glory and honor of His Name. So that means, it’s worth it.
This morning, as I was praying and writing out, once again, all my anxious thoughts, He reminded me of a simple truth and I found that as I wrote I was reminding my own heart of that truth. I wrote to Him:
“It isn’t about where You take me. It’s about right here in this moment. These are the moments that are most real, the most life changing.”
With all the opportunities in the world, no matter how great or how small; with the fulfillment of the grandest dream I could ever dream up; or the most romantic, sweetest love story He could ever write for me, the most exciting adventure to the most exotic place I could ever go to… nothing, nothing could change my life, nothing could matter more than sitting with Him and knowing Him.
So I am certain, that no matter where life takes me, this is where I will always land. This is what is going to change me and my life. These moments with Him, hearing His voice, allowing Him to tell me that I’m His every day, these are the moments that matter.
After I sat with Him this morning, I heard Him tell me to read Psalm 84. It was no surprise what it said. I encourage you to take a moment and meditate on it and allow Abba to write it on your heart!
Psalm 84
“How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of Heaven’s Armies.
I long, yes, I faint with longing to enter the courts of the Lord.
With my whole being, body, and soul, I will shout joyfully to the living God.
Even the sparrow finds a home, and the swallow builds her nest and raises her young at a place near your altar, O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, my King, and my God!
What joy for those who can live in your house, always singing your praises.
Interlude
What joy for those whose strength comes from the Lord, who have set their minds on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem.
When they walk through the Valley of Weeping, it will become a place of refreshing springs.
The autumn rains will clothe it with blessings.
They will continue to grow stronger, and each of them will appear before God in Jerusalem.
O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, hear my prayer.
Listen, O God of Jacob.
Interlude
O God, look with favor upon the king, our shield!
Show favor to the one you have anointed.
A single day in your courts is better than a thousand anywhere else!
I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.
For the Lord is our sun and our shield.
He gives us grace and glory.
The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, what joy for those who trust in You.”