Fake It

I think most everyone fakes it to a certain level. I have accidently ran into people that I really don’t like being around and pretended it was good to see them. I have also faked having fun when I was really bored. I know that I’m probably the only one who has ever faked it. (Please note the sarcasm!) I do not like being faked out or someone faking it around me. I’ve worked hard the past several years to simply be comfortable in my own skin. I don’t have to pretend to be something I’m not. I can simply be me. I don’t have to be rude or obnoxious when I don’t like something, but I don’t have to fake it either.

King Saul threatened David’s life even after he was anointed king. David was waiting on God’s timing and he was determined to show respect to The Lord’s anointed. David lies to Ahimilech the priest and I’m sure he was straight up desperate to survive his fugitive status with King Saul. David flees to Gath, the Philistine enemy, and seeks asylum. He figures out how to stay alive while there. Check this out…

10 That day David fled from Saul and went to Achish king of Gath. 11 But the servants of Achish said to him, ‘Isn’t this David, the king of the land? Isn’t he the one they sing about in their dances:

‘“Saul has slain his thousands,

    and David his tens of thousands”?’

12 David took these words to heart and was very much afraid of Achish king of Gath. 13 So he feigned insanity in their presence; and while he was in their hands he acted like a madman, making marks on the doors of the gate and letting saliva run down his beard. (1 Samuel 21:10-13 NIV)

David did what he had to do to stay alive. I think I could fake insanity if it meant survival. Faking it is closely related to false. I believe that faking it is really dishonest. I want to be liked so I pretend to like others. I will say that I have a pretty high tolerance of people that get on my nerves. I do have a threshold that once it’s crossed, it’s hard for me to take much more. I do believe that being direct and honest is probably a better course to take than faking it or pretending. I’ve found that the truth has a way of working it’s way to the top.

I will do my best to be honest and forthright to others even if it is hard. I know what it’s like to have people pretend to like me, and then talk bad about me behind my back – it hurts more than a direct confrontation conversation.

I want to be real.

I want to be kind.

I want to be direct.

I want to be gentle.

I want to be honest.

Pressing On!

Dwayne