You’re Never Gonna Let Me Down
Blog by Kristen Hicks
Breathe… perceive… see… understand… align… agree… Kingdom.
These have been my words lately. And yes, in this order. There are so many things I don’t understand. I have questions. Questions others have come to me with, questions I have on my own— questions about life, love, the Lord— both personal and corporate. Just so many questions.
But in the midst of my questions, this regiment has deemed itself to be effective. I feel as if this group of words together could be summed up in one word it would be “repentance.” Yes, the simplicity of repentance is just choosing Jesus every day. But sometimes, the action of “choice” needs to be defined. Therefore, breathe, perceive, see, understand, align, agree, Kingdom. It is simple, but as my Dad says, “simple doesn’t always mean easy.”
One of my favorite songs, for going on two years now, is “King Of My Heart.” I could tell you story after story after story of times when this song came into my world at just the right moment. Moments of fear, moments of anxiety, moments of struggle. I would sing it at the top of my lungs until the truth of the goodness of God would overshadow all the lies. Sometimes this song would just come out of me, not as a reminder but as an overflow of the joy and just being in awe of who He is.
A couple of weeks ago, I found myself in yet a new place with this song. In a crowd of people all singing “You’re never gonna let, never gonna let me down” I just struggled to make the words form on my tongue. Because at that moment, I did feel let down. I felt disappointed and hurt by God. I started pouring out my heart very bluntly until I heard the Lord speak. “You’ve been singing it wrong.” Suddenly, I had this picture in my mind. It was of Him holding me and carrying me. “It’s not that you’re never gonna be disappointed or feel hurt by Me.” He spoke gently, “It’s that I’m never gonna let you down. I’m never gonna stop carrying you.” Just like in all of the other moments of learning to sing of the goodness of God, it began to rise from within me and soon I began belting it out with a new understanding of who He is.
I don’t have all the answers to my questions. I don’t have this insane foreshadowing of how everything is gonna turn out, but I can cling to Him in constant repentance knowing that He is never gonna let me down. Reminding myself to breathe in the Spirit deep; perceive where I’ve been and where I’m going; see where the Father is and where He is going; rest in His understanding instead of my own (which doesn’t always mean I’ll fully understand, by the way); align myself with His understanding of what He is doing and where He is going; come into agreement with what He is doing and where He and going and in doing so, finding myself smack dab in the middle of His Kingdom basking in His Presence and the goodness of His Heart!
King Of My Heart
“Let the King of my heart be the mountain where I run, the fountain I drink from, Oh, He is my song
Let the King of my heart be the shadow where I hide, the ransom of my life, Oh, He is my song.
You are good, good, Ohhhh
You are good, good, Ohhhh
You are good, good, Ohhhh
You are good, good, Ohhhh
Let the King of my heart be the wind inside my sails, the anchor in the wave, Oh, He is my song.
Let the King of my heart be the fire inside my days, the echo of my days, Oh, He is my song.
You’re never gonna let, never gonna let me down.
You’re never gonna let, never gonna let me down.
You’re never gonna let, never gonna let me down.
You’re never gonna let, never gonna let me down.”