Pretend Worship

Worship to GodI’ve used the phrase: “Fake it till you make it”. I confess that I’ve pretended to worship before, because I was supposed to worship. I’ve pretended because others were watching. It’s been several years, but I have since learned the value of being genuine before the Lord. I have learned that He knows my heart and “pretend worship” doesn’t really help things. I have also learned that the Lord really hates hypocrisy. Pretend worship is really hypocrisy. I’m at a place in my journey that the more I learn about the Lord the more I’m drawn to genuine worship, wonder and awe of Who He is and I’m humbled that He would love someone like me.

One of the more disturbing passages in scripture is when Jesus is taken before the Jewish leaders in the wee hours of the morning for a “pretend trial”. He is then taken to Pilate, who was governor, but also a “push over”. Pilate releases a murderer and turns Jesus over to the Roman soldiers for execution via crucifixion. This scene disturbed me. Check this out…

16 The soldiers took Jesus into the courtyard of the governor’s headquarters (called the Praetorium) and called out the entire regiment. 17 They dressed him in a purple robe, and they wove thorn branches into a crown and put it on his head.18 Then they saluted him and taunted, “Hail! King of the Jews!” 19 And they struck him on the head with a reed stick, spit on him, and dropped to their knees in mock worship. 20 When they were finally tired of mocking him, they took off the purple robe and put his own clothes on him again. Then they led him away to be crucified. (Mark 5:15-20 NLT)

This mock worship really nailed my heart. These soldiers didn’t know that the One and Only Son of God was the object of their mockery. They went the extra distance to put on a good show. They were clearly sarcastic and playful, but this scene really disturbed me. I felt convicted of my pretend worship. I remember times of being angry and hurt at God. I felt like He could have protected my loved ones from sickness and suffering. I now realize that I was looking at my circumstances in light of honoring me instead of trying to honor God regardless of my circumstances. My genuine worship should happen because of Who He is NOT BECAUSE of what He does for me. Pretend worship is really self-worship. Pretend worship reveals a diseased & corrupt heart.

I want to come before the Lord in Awe & Wonder for all that He is and all that He is doing in me and in others. I can’t make my worship about music or anything to do with me. It is ALL ABOUT HIM! I believe genuine, true worship is about surrendering my heart before Him to be used by Him.

Pressing On!

Dwayne

Fake It

 

What can I do? picture about regretI think most everyone fakes it to a certain level. I have accidently ran into people that I really don’t like being around and pretended it was good to see them. I have also faked having fun when I was really bored. I know that I’m probably the only one who has ever faked it. (Please note the sarcasm!) I do not like being faked out or someone faking it around me. I’ve worked hard the past several years to simply be comfortable in my own skin. I don’t have to pretend to be something I’m not. I can simply be me. I don’t have to be rude or obnoxious when I don’t like something, but I don’t have to fake it either.

King Saul threatened David’s life even after he was anointed king. David was waiting on God’s timing and he was determined to show respect to The Lord’s anointed. David lies to Ahimilech the priest and I’m sure he was straight up desperate to survive his fugitive status with King Saul. David flees to Gath, the Philistine enemy, and seeks asylum. He figures out how to stay alive while there. Check this out…

10 That day David fled from Saul and went to Achish king of Gath. 11 But the servants of Achish said to him, ‘Isn’t this David, the king of the land? Isn’t he the one they sing about in their dances:

‘“Saul has slain his thousands,

    and David his tens of thousands”?’

12 David took these words to heart and was very much afraid of Achish king of Gath. 13 So he feigned insanity in their presence; and while he was in their hands he acted like a madman, making marks on the doors of the gate and letting saliva run down his beard. (1 Samuel 21:10-13 NIV)

David did what he had to do to stay alive. I think I could fake insanity if it meant survival. Faking it is closely related to false. I believe that faking it is really dishonest. I want to be liked so I pretend to like others. I will say that I have a pretty high tolerance of people that get on my nerves. I do have a threshold that once it’s crossed, it’s hard for me to take much more. I do believe that being direct and honest is probably a better course to take than faking it or pretending. I’ve found that the truth has a way of working it’s way to the top.

I will do my best to be honest and forthright to others even if it is hard. I know what it’s like to have people pretend to like me, and then talk bad about me behind my back – it hurts more than a direct confrontation conversation.

I want to be real.

I want to be kind.

I want to be direct.

I want to be gentle.

I want to be honest.

Pressing On!

Dwayne

Pretend

Masks with the theatre conceptI remember playing “Cowboys & Indians” as a kid. I would pretend to be the Cowboy and my sister loved Indians, so she would play that part. This word Pretend is defined as: “speaking and acting so as to make something appear to be the case when in fact, it is not”. I believe that there are a lot of pretenders around me. There are people who pretend to be powerful, when in fact they aren’t. I see people pretend to be wealthy that are not. I see people pretend to be spiritual, but they are not.

Pretend carries with it a sense of playfulness, yet it also carries with it a sense of deceit.  Check this out….

7 One person pretends to be rich, yet has nothing;
 
   another pretends to be poor, yet has great wealth. (Proverbs 13:7 NIV)

 

Early on in my career in real estate, I encountered buyers that would say something to the effect that “money is not a problem”. When I heard this I learned that it usually was a problem.  Some people masquerade and pretend to be something they are not and they have to work really hard to keep up the facade.  I would rather be humbly honest instead of arrogantly deceitful. I would rather be rich in the spiritual than to win the lottery and be worth millions. All that I see and have on this earth is temporary and will be left behind when I die.  I would rather leave my family a legacy of faith than a huge inheritance of money. They would probably like me to do both!

I want to always be who I am – without pretense.

Pressing On!
Dwayne