A Troubling Thought

Praying ManI’ve been to some tough places in my life.

I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to be lost.

I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to feel hopeless.

I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to feel helpless.

I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to feel empty inside.

I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to be “beat down by others”.

 

I remember when I surrendered my life to the Lord.

I remember the hope I felt the first time I trusted Him.

I remember my baptism.

I remember lots of markers along my journey with the Lord.

I remember lots of times of repentance for stupid choices.

I remember lots of grace.

I remember lots of mercy.

What I don’t understand is how others can so easily dismiss a loving God who longs for relationship with His creation. I don’t understand how others can look at this world and think it happened by accident or with a big explosion and suddenly order appeared.

I read a troubling passage in Revelation where John, the writer/Apostle saw a scene of destruction and rebellion. Check this out…

In those days people will seek death and will not find it; they will long to die, but death will flee from them.

20 The rest of the people, who were not killed by these plagues, did not repent of the works of their hands to stop worshiping demons and idols of gold, silver, bronze, stone, and wood, which cannot see, hear, or walk. 21 And they did not repent of their murders, their sorceries, their sexual immorality, or their thefts. (Revelation 9:6, 20-21 CSB)

I don’t always understand the hand of God – but I trust His heart.

I can’t always understand why God does or doesn’t intervene – but I trust He knows what is best.

I don’t ever want to forget what it was like to be lost. I’m so thankful that the Lord was patient with me as I meandered through life ignoring Him, until the day I stopped and took a long, hard look at Him. It’s been a journey, with lots of stumbling’s and mistakes – but I don’t ever want to let go of His hand – no matter what life sends my way.

Pressing On!

Dwayne

Shine

Man walking to the lightI love the day time. I love it when it becomes daylight and the sun is illuminating the earth. I like it when it’s so bright that I need sun glasses to calm the light from my eyes! I like light a lot better than darkness. At night, we are limited to lumens to measure the brightness of the light. When it’s dark, I’m looking for light except when it’s time to go to sleep, the light can bother me. A few nights ago, part of the power grid in our area when down and we had no electricity. I had flashlight on my phone, I lit candles. I couldn’t’ find my oil lamp or I would have lit that too. Light is noticeable when it’s missing or not functioning well.

The Lord is the light of the world. He created light. Check this out…

May God be gracious to us and bless us
    and make his face shine on us-
so that your ways may be known on earth,
    your salvation among all nations.

May the peoples praise you, God;
    may all the peoples praise you.

The land yields its harvest;
    God, our God, blesses us.
May God bless us still,
    so that all the ends of the earth will fear him. (Psalm 67:1-2, 5-7 NIV)

I remember some times in my life when I felt like the darkness was squeezing the light out. I was looking for light, but it felt like a dark fog settling in around me. I remember especially when my son was fighting cancer feeling like I was in a dark fog. I was pretty ticked at God too. I remember hearing a song that started lifting the fog from my life. The song was “Let Me Feel You Shine” by David Crowder Band. Here are the lyrics…

This place is trying to break my belief
But my faith is bigger than all I can see
What I need is redemption
What I need is for You for to put me back on my feet

I swear I’m trying to give everything
But I feel I’m falling, oh make me believe
What I need is resurrection
What I need is for You to put me back on my feet

If I could feel You shine Your perpetual light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If I could feel You feel You shine
Oh let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin’ out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine Oh, 
Let me feel You shine

I lift the knife to the thing I love most
Praying You’ll come so I can have both
What I need is for You to touch me
What I need is for You to be the thing that I need

If I could feel You shine your perpetual light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If I could feel You feel You shine
Oh let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin’ out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine
God I need a Savior
O come Generous King
O God I need a Savior
To come rescue me

Oh let me feel You shine Your magnificent light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If You let me feel You feel You shine
Oh let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin’ out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine

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Pressing On!

Dwayne

Lost Then Found

 

lost and found road sign illustration designI have never been a fan of the popular television series called “Lost”. I used to love “Gilligan’s Island” as a kid. I have been lost in the woods years ago. I have been lost before the days of GPS (and after GPS’s that are wrong)! Being lost is very disturbing. My mind goes to the worst-case scenario and that often makes things worse. My thinking is skewed by fear. I should simple settle down and think of my options. Being lost sets up preparation for the next time. I will have the tools I need to avoid getting lost.

I remember what it was like to be lost from the Lord. He had done His part; I had simply rejected Him. I was running from Him. I had lost my way. King David talks about how incredible the Lord is and what He’s done for the people of Israel. I was reminded of what it felt like to be lost from God. Check this out…

16 Come and hear, all you who fear God;

    let me tell you what he has done for me.
17 I cried out to him with my mouth;
    his praise was on my tongue.
18 If I had cherished sin in my heart,
    the Lord would not have listened;
19 but God has surely listened
    and has heard my prayer.
20 Praise be to God,
    who has not rejected my prayer
    or withheld his love from me! (Psalm 66:16-20 NIV)

When I remember what it’s like to be lost, I’m even more thankful that I’m found. The Lord pursues His kids with relentless grace and mercy. If He were not full of grace I would still be lost. I was attracted to His love, His kindness and His grace. Now that I know Him, I rely on His Presence and His Power to direct my path. He doesn’t leave me. He doesn’t forget me. His takes great care to help me wherever I am or whatever I’m doing. He’s my Heavenly Father and He cares deeply for me. I’m so thankful to be found – compels me to sing to Him in gratefulness. This passage reminded of great song called My Glorious by Delirious.

The world’s shaking with the love of God
Great and glorious, let the whole earth sing
And all you ever do is change the old for new
People we believe that

God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we’ll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!

Clouds are breaking, heaven’s come to earth
Hearts awakening let the church bells ring
And all you ever do is change the old for new
People we believe that

God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we’ll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!

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Pressing On!

Dwayne